falling out of love, forgetting the color of the walls.

he sleeps over there, while i lie awake in my bed. the window is open on the coldest night of the season so far. the wind rushes in, invading, then leaving, taking pieces of me with it. the blinds make sounds, my resistance, my failure to keep myself to myself. my soul is lost, my body tired and my heart is empty...,

oh what have you done to me? how could i let you? how could i do this to myself?

these images will take me a long way before the morning light fills up the sky.

there you sleep in peace. i close the window. i'll let you sleep in peace. tomorrow is going to be a long day of searching.

a quiet rush

"i try to talk to you, but i don't know what to say. i am afraid you don't want me to say anything. so i don't. but inside of me there are words waiting to come out. and tell you how i feel-like how i miss you. and how i love you despite my broken heart. and how i need you in my life. and especially how much i want you. but those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. sometimes i wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but i'll never know."

~ author unknown

cold hearts

still there's too much undone

cold hearts
it's leaving time
it takes to much from you to make it right
cold hearts
drift away
when distance grows to big
we'll have to part

cold hearts - club 8

wow.... seriously, wow!

A Fine Frenzy, 

Live at the Gramercy Theater

New York

10/28/09

wow...

the truth is....

please don't let me go,
i desperately need you.

meteor shower - owl city


you're never there when i need you the most. still, i save the best excuses for you.

you spoiled brat.

intense

yeh hawa se main saans

laita hoon

10 Drift - Amanaska

i cannot explain how or why this song has such a profound effect on me.

the beacon

You say your time has come

You're tired of waking up

Don't be obscene, I can't conceive of

Living without you

You say you drag me down

No one should want you now

I start to cry, you kiss my eyes and say

I'm not allowed to

Burning beacon in the night

Can't feel its heat, or see its light

That single solitary guide, it must get lonely there sometimes

You were a child forgot

Lessons of love untaught

Now no embrace can quite replace

The one that never found you

I was raised tenderly

All that was taught to me

I will apply, your parents tried but they didn't know how to

Burning beacon in the night

Can't feel its heat, or see its light

That single solitary guide, it must get lonely there sometimes

Let me stand by you

Honor is mine

Let me stand by you

Loneliest light, loneliest light, loneliest light 

The Beacon - A Fine Frenzy.